Where will you go?

I've given my best... This is the furthest i can go... i welcomed you to my place with a hug and you came in... broke my heart into pieces and you left me for something else... everything was going to be alright in my life... i was smiling again like before and you know you are the reason... i took a breathe and looked at you with my eyes closed and you were just smiling like nothing even happened... like you didn't do anything at all... i closed my eyes and begin to pray that you would see me but i wasn't even there... you made me a captive of my own prison.. i wish i could hate you.. but i cant... you are a freaking asshole... i still wanna love you... for a reason that you are divya... the same girl who changed me... the same girl who loved me... go back there.. hold my hand... don't ever leave it... you broke my heart and it cant cant be put back together but please hold me hand... i am crippled without your love... is it so hard to give me some love? you have so much to give... i am worth it cuz i went through what not any guy would... yeah i said it... i am worth it... i probably wasn't a few months back.. but now i am... and you deserve nothing better than me... or worse... after all this i still ask you "Hold my hand and i will give you everything you need. Will you hold my hand?"

I can hear you in a whisper, But you can't even hear me screaming.I know who you really are
You're the one who cries when you're alone. I'm so sick of speaking words that no one understands

If i had only one wish i would pray he isn't like me... hope he understands that he can take this life and hold it in his hands but you will never look at him the way you looked at me... you never love him the way you loved me... you will never smile like you smiled holding my hand... you will never sleep on his chest so peacefully like you did on mine.. you will never let him touch you the way i did... i know after reading this you wanna do all dese things i said you cant do with him just to prove me wrong but who you kidding?

We are like the horizon.. nothing can separate us... the more you push me away the more i will pull... so stop this game of pushing and pulling... even if you think i don deserve you please hold my hand...

Reaching out to you

As i watch, you grow immune

to all my love n care

all i can do is look into your eyes

hoping you understand me

I race with the storms

Of hate, wondering why I’m even

trying cuz you will still hate me

for all I was not for wat i am

i've learnt never to give up

i got a long way to go

before i can say goodbye

to all memories with you

you lived in fantasy

its time i made it reality

you walk away

i go on my knees and call you back

you are the best life can bring

even though i feel the pain

i know i will gain

just being with you

story books full of fairy tales

of kings and queens and the bluest of skies

my heart is torn knowing

how you are only seeing the lies from truth

walk in my shoes

you will see how i have perfectly laid out

everything for you, everything that you ever wanted

at the end of which i wanna see you smiling

i thrive for your love

beautiful is what you define

sacrifice is what you've done

love is all i can give back

dreams might not come true

castles may crumble

but you are safe in my arms

don't push me away

i will bleed to never see you cry

bring the stars down to make you smile

fly with you and make you laugh

give you happiness in my arms

i still cry on the window sill

cuz you are still not mine

i wanna just take a pill

and sleep for ages.

Entwined

This is the moment
i never wanted
but its happened again
there is no gain
its a test i must pass
im not some1 who attends the mass
so i don have peace of mind right now

im all fucked up
just the way she is psyched up
i'm all over again in a mess
i don want her any less
she's been a pain
but i still love her

i look into the mirror today
looking urglier everyday
cuz she is going further away
i gotta begin all over again
but its harder each time cuz it causes so much pain
what could be worse than to be left
by the side of a dump
just the way it was a year ago

she needs her pills
i need my will
im wounded but its just for me
i just cant see
anythin but being torn upart
picking up my pieces
i walk to the end of the road

i dunno how to deal
she just bluffed
i was caught in the middle of a black hole
which sucked up all my strentgh
i'm lying low
but the devil finds me
he sues me for not giving him his share

i don want any fuckin body to follow me
cuz im gonna be lost , this time for longer
she's easy in her bed
saying sorry, well said
but it aint help
so fuck off

leave me alone
like a abandoned kid
but i'll beat you
you'll see me rise in front of you
but i wont be happy
you are mean, like a witch
i changed your life for the better
you will for the worse

Animosity

Have you ever hated someone
as much as you love someone else?
i have, its just the same
if you just look at love
in the mirror, its just that
he is a fucking smoke
suffocating a lotta people
just the way a person
who you love is a pearl
who brings a smile on everyone's face
he curtains her world
she is in a lock
he changes the key everyday
but he is still the same
talking the same fucking thing
over n over again
i miss her voice
that keeps ringing in my ears
all the sweet talk and laughs
its so hard not to unbelieve
the things that happened
that just did
walking backwards i don't see the pit
but i know i'll hold up
he is a pain to the world
it doesn't matter if he lives
or he is a dead creature
i taught demon's didnt exist
to push you into a hole
and wait for you to die
but now i know for sure there is one
he is like a yeti
you never know how or when
he just kicks in

But baby i'll keep my word
i'll keep you happy
and away from this man
who just pisses me off
There's going to be a day
when all you would want
you have, and it'll be without this man

Arduous Times

If there's a world i could take away to
it would be somewhere so far
nobody could imagine
it's so vast nobody could find you

i wish i could take you away to this land
where only angel's live
and you sure belong there
cuz you are so true

nobody to hurt you
or to cause any trouble
nobody to be scared of
not even me

a place where you get everything you want
everything you wish for
happiness and joy
away from dirt

out of the heat
distant from cold
as beautiful as you can look
i wanna see

there wouldnt be a minute that you wouldnt smile
not a sec you would regret
not a day without love
all in all its everything you want

i wish i could go through what you did
but i'm in a lucky venture with god
he hurts me through your pain
its worse than if it were mine

one day i will take you away
to this distant and serene land
where only angel's live
cuz you sure belong there

Walk with me

Ain't a day i havent spoken to you
since the day i know you
i will love you whatever happens
and i'm there for you every moment

i ain't hiding in the shadows
if i come out of the shade
you might just get burnt
and i love you a lot to let that happen

if you need anythin at all
when you are down and out
you should know i'm always there
without a taught you can come to me

if there ever comes a time
where we have to depart
i would go back to sleep
and wake up to a new dream

you left me with no choice to love you
god please don't take it away from me
let the coin spin till i get the heads up
else i will fall flat on face again

Postive Change

The heavens open up and you come down as an angel. Before i met you i'd never fallen in love. I'd just stepped in a few times. There couldn't have been a better time or place for you to enter my heart. So lonely i was in the dunes of loneliness, walking all alone on cracking ice. Every step i took there was another nail in my coffin. An angel just swept fast carrying me out to a fairyland, filled with different hues and odours. I met her one sunny afternoon. So cute and so shy. She was meant to be mine even before we met. Feeling lucky i open my arms to greet this beautiful girl. A warm hug envelopes me. Tiny hairs on my hand rise. This is a touch i would never forget. From then on its just a tale of surprises and happiness. Very few anxious moments in my life since that day.You are someone who has showed me what love and life is. You told me stories about yourself which i listen intently. You are so full of surprises i can never imagine or guess what's next with us. Every time i meet you its a different world with the same love. I love to be with you in happiness and in pain. Haven't seen much of the later part though. I'm glad i was your choice. You comfort me like nobody else can. I might not be the best guy for you but you are the best companion i could've ever chose. You are nothing but the cutest thing on earth. Never taught i could find a girl who is so complete and so perfect for me. You are a part of me now. We are tied by the chains of hope and destiny. You walked into my life when i was giving up on everything. Now I am on a island called happiness. You make me feel so special. If i'm cute its because of you. You taught me what passion and desire is. There isn't a day you have made me feel insignificant in your precious and beautiful life. I was a boat without a sail. You helped me move ahead. The skies look more blue than grey. The dawn bring me new hope everyday. The sun sets beneath our back and a new passion of love arises. You speak to my heart and your smile touches my soul. I stand on the cliff of love. I'm bound by your love. Looking into your beautiful eyes i wish to die.